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Thinking

Journal Entry: Wed Apr 30, 2008, 6:30 AM
Just thinking about how complex and sometimes annoying life can be. You think you are ready for a change, but when it comes, because you pushed it, you wonder what to do, because you are suddenly so lost. When something has become so routine, and then is gone. Where do you turn to when all of your life is completely different than it was yesterday. Turn to yesterday, when everything fell into place? Looked like life was fantastic, and had hopes of love, dreams and far away thoughts of success? How do you keep pretending that everything is ok, while the walls of you life are about to touch the ground. Slowly drifting into the solemn depths of your mind, where no one, and nothing can hurt you anymore. When there only exists you, and memories to dwell on because of your mistakes, his, hers, theirs, ours...:helpdesk:

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:cries: Who do you go to, when the only person who knows everything there is to know, now knows nothing. When they have turned away, and forgotten what your face looks like, skin feels like, and kiss tastes like. But the reality is-- they never stopped lying. Why do you love those who hurt you most? Die in their arms if they would let you, even if it is by their own hand. Where do you find the valve to your heart? :crying: The one that shuts off all feeling, chases the cold out of its hiding and into your breath, stops your mind from lusting after the lost, and taking your eyes off of his pictures. :worry:

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When someone hurts you, you don't give in--right? But is love stronger than many broken promises? of constant arguments? of debts beyond repayment? :raincloud: Character flaws that are sure to continue? When is too soon to find a new comfort-- if you still love them, yet cannot stand them? When is the line drawn of too many changes, just to be with someone? Am I wrong to love you, when our lives met in pain, loved in pain, and lost in pain? Promises made of a far off present. Months from now, we thought we had made it. But we had already failed- Don't you see? You. Me. We could never be. Since day 1 things have gone the opposite way. We were supposed to share our lives together, but not being ourselves isn't sharing.

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There is more, I guess... But i don't know where else to look... </3

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  • Mood: Yearning
  • Listening to: sounds I don't understand
  • Reading: secrets of my heart
  • Watching: my chest heave with pain
  • Playing: mind games with my heart
  • Eating: my words, one by one
  • Drinking: away my soul, pain and all

Devious Information

  • Current Age: 17
  • Current Residence: SSM
  • Print preference: CMYK 300 res of course ;)
  • Interests: Computers, web design, graphix, yearbooking, facebook creeping
  • Favourite movie: Lots of em... Thirteen, Mini's First Time, The Convenant, Disney Movies.... and more!
  • Favourite band or musician: Randoms, right now Miley Cyrus
  • Favourite genre of music: dance-able Music
  • Favourite poet or writer: James Patterson
  • Favourite photographer: me XD
  • Favourite style or digital art: unique
  • Operating System: Mac or XP
  • MP3 player of choice: my iPod (3rd Gen nano)
  • Favourite game: super NES playable
  • Favourite gaming platform: Wii!!!!!
  • Favourite cartoon character: Mickey and Minnie
  • Personal Quote: Like, Are They Stupid?.. Wait- Don't Answer That!!
  • Tools of the Trade: My Mouse

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Devious Comments

~SpazzyPebbles:iconSpazzyPebbles: 4 days 18 hours ago
thanks for the :+devwatch:

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~xCupcakesx:iconxCupcakesx: 5 days 9 hours ago
Hey there! Thank you very much for the friend add!

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~SpazzyPebbles:iconSpazzyPebbles: 6 days 13 hours ago
isht a cutie!! ♥

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~*I shall call him squishy and he shall be mine and he shall be my squishy Come on, squishy Come on, little squishy. Ow! Bad squishy, bad squishy*~
~chosen-hero:iconchosen-hero: May 12, 2008, 8:12:24 AM
you :heart: the goldie, don't you lol.
i know you do - thanks for the fav! :D

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~thewickerman-13:iconthewickerman-13: May 8, 2008, 7:46:02 AM
mmmm : D

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~SpazzyPebbles:iconSpazzyPebbles: May 7, 2008, 7:15:51 AM
you know i do :D

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~*I shall call him squishy and he shall be mine and he shall be my squishy Come on, squishy Come on, little squishy. Ow! Bad squishy, bad squishy*~
~thewickerman-13:iconthewickerman-13: May 7, 2008, 7:04:10 AM
wanna have xtremkely hot sex?

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Here I'm a flash then gone without a care
~Boonski:iconBoonski: Apr 30, 2008, 10:56:44 AM
hey it friendship day
send this to 15 people you love
tell me how many you get^^.
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happy friendship day<3
*kaborge:iconkaborge: Apr 30, 2008, 6:46:15 AM
thank you very much for the fav.im glad you liked my pictures...

kaborge
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~SpazzyPebbles:iconSpazzyPebbles: Apr 18, 2008, 6:12:35 AM
np i really like it <3

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~Hellstorm6514:iconHellstorm6514: Apr 17, 2008, 9:59:56 AM
Thanks for the fav hun :)
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~chosen-hero:iconchosen-hero: Apr 9, 2008, 6:09:07 AM
hehehe... that's a pretty good goal, I guess. have fun :P

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"To describe a person as a native is not only to say of them that they were born in a particular place - since this after all can be said of everyone - but that they belong to that place, that they are made of it..."
~SpazzyPebbles:iconSpazzyPebbles: Apr 9, 2008, 5:57:35 AM
i am now!! but logging off :p cuz im busy... working towards my 100% in commtechy

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~*I shall call him squishy and he shall be mine and he shall be my squishy Come on, squishy Come on, little squishy. Ow! Bad squishy, bad squishy*~
~SpazzyPebbles:iconSpazzyPebbles: Apr 9, 2008, 5:57:15 AM
np :D

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~*I shall call him squishy and he shall be mine and he shall be my squishy Come on, squishy Come on, little squishy. Ow! Bad squishy, bad squishy*~
~chosen-hero:iconchosen-hero: Apr 8, 2008, 7:16:06 AM
Where are you? O_o
You're not in commtech... ?

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"To describe a person as a native is not only to say of them that they were born in a particular place - since this after all can be said of everyone - but that they belong to that place, that they are made of it..."
~joshxxx:iconjoshxxx: Apr 6, 2008, 7:00:21 PM
Thanks for the add.

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~LunaNueva01:iconLunaNueva01: Apr 6, 2008, 4:15:47 AM
Ahahaha.. :hug: Have fun!!! :D

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So cover your eyes and grow claws.
~Hellstorm6514:iconHellstorm6514: Apr 4, 2008, 7:06:01 PM
Np my pleasure, well we'll figure out where you are at , what you want to learn and we'll take it from there and set up a place to get tutoring started.
~SpazzyPebbles:iconSpazzyPebbles: Apr 4, 2008, 7:31:07 AM
no problem :D

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~*I shall call him squishy and he shall be mine and he shall be my squishy Come on, squishy Come on, little squishy. Ow! Bad squishy, bad squishy*~
~J3n-niF3R:iconJ3n-niF3R: Apr 3, 2008, 10:00:56 PM
thanks so much for the watch!! :D

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~SpazzyPebbles:iconSpazzyPebbles: Apr 3, 2008, 8:12:46 PM
OMG thanks!! I am heading to Echo Bay at the end of the month for a few days, my gramma is an artist and was featured in Bon Soo and Art gallery of Algoma, but I work so much and go to school, so I can't get out there very often for lessons :S I need all the help I can get cuz i just get so busy lol

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~*I shall call him squishy and he shall be mine and he shall be my squishy Come on, squishy Come on, little squishy. Ow! Bad squishy, bad squishy*~
~Hellstorm6514:iconHellstorm6514: Apr 3, 2008, 11:18:03 AM
Nice gallery :) , I'd be willing to give you a hand with improving your drawing skills when the semester is over. I minor in graphic design so I can give you a fair idea what they want from you at Sault College.
~chosen-hero:iconchosen-hero: Apr 3, 2008, 5:54:12 AM
lol

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"To describe a person as a native is not only to say of them that they were born in a particular place - since this after all can be said of everyone - but that they belong to that place, that they are made of it..."